Saturday, September 03, 2005
haiz feeling very fan again.. this sucks and it sucks alot i hate this feeling why do i always have this fuck up feeling of being nothing.. haiz.. i really duno what to do.. i got nothing to say already i duno what to do .. i got this feeling that there will be no ending to this story my story.. my life hate her so much but yet love her so much too .. what the fuck is wrong with me.. why do i persist when she was me to leave.. this is fucking disturbing and haiz.. what the hell.. why is it this way.. wonder what she is thinking about... what is her feeling towards me.. what am i to her.. i friend a freak.. an asshole that is always disturbing her.. haiz.. maybe she ignore my message because she got someone else in mind and feel that i suck.. what the hell is this stupid botak bothering me when i dun like him.. why if dun like that si botak then say la.. haiz.. sian la.. kao bei what the fuck is going on.. sucker blog what blog this blog sucks .. assholic freak invading my privacy... sian... haiz.. why is she always avoiding.. why why.. people why why.. am i pressuring her.. or she just DUN LIKE ME AT THE FIRST PLACE... haiz.. why.. if she dun like that why didn't she say at first why is she making me wait.. wait wait... haiz.. what do i really prove when i wait faithful all this are bunch of shits.. sian la kao bei where is she i really wish to talk to her she is damn fuck up.. avoid avoid avoid what the hell.. why do u want to aviod what do u gain how i wish i can settle it once and for all but it never happen.. i dun want to give up.. she wants me to but why.. i will only do it when she express her feeling all this time she never say she likes me or not.. she never.. i will give up when she just say "raymond or whatever .. i dun like you " thats all thats all........
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